Well I got sicker blaaahhhh. Then reality kicked in and I realized that had to pass science and math. But here I am! Summertime awaits full of possible lessons for me and my sisters.
Today I learned about possibility. Today I learned that it is the most fickle thing in the world and that sometimes when everything is new and possible and there are two months of freedom awaiting you.
Everything can seem a little dark cause one tiny door is slowly closing. But here's the kicker.
that doesn't mean the end of the world.
Do we get to be worried? Sad? Confused? Of course! But the fact is that chances are always going to be out there and maybe I'm being to hard on myself maybe the chance still is there. But it's the eternal fight for optimism that keeps life interesting.

Today I didn't learn much. I learned never to trust ANYONE who tells you where your exam is not the commissionaire or your classmates NOBODY just go into the halls and check the postings saves you a lot of strife. I also learned that writing lists is a great way to make yourself feel like you've accomplished something. Cause if by the end of the year you can say that you accomplished one thing on your list things are good.

Therefore....

THIS SUMMER

1. Attend/Help organize a rally because Mc Carthy's big uniform supplier uses child labour? Not cool.

2.Learn To Sew- I need to stop going into stores and saying "Oh god I could make that!" it bothers salespeople

3.Learn to Cook-I sound so domestic!

4.Practice my flute (My guriella war tactics won out evil music teacher retired! )

5. Get a good grasp on the guitar

6. Have amazing bonfire making starlight party at petro park

7.Visit the art gallery in the city and locally regularly.

8. Use the car as little as possible

9.Teach everyone the beauty of Kerr street. Seriously it's a haven just waiting to be discovered.

10.Return my library books on time.

11. Keep being a "Harold" ala Harold and Maude and visiting the cemeteries with Meagan. (One Day write a post explaining this)

12. WriteWriteWrite

13.Walk through the lakeside trails downtown till we reach a secluded park blasting the Beatles. Then have a picnic.

14.Eat lots of Gelato

15. Have "Film fests"

16. Get mum's old SLR and take lots and lots of pictures.

17. Be Brave

18.Take Chances

19.Forget everything I learned in school except for drama and history those are important things

20. See 500 days of Summer and get my hair cut like the girl in 500 days of summer

21.Make those tshirts for all my friends "Modest as an Effin Peacock" "Plain as an Effin Zebra" "Happy as an Effin Thundercloud" "Straight as an Effin Curly Straw" etc. etc.

22. Go to lots and lots of varied concerts

24. Have more choir kid reunion specials and interesting artsy kid hangouts which result in interesting and blurry pictures that make me look like a ghost.

Ever seen a baby robin be born? Put that on your to do list.

Today I learned about preperation.

With exams looming and culminatings on top of us it's easy to think of preperation in the simple reading your notes kind of way. But today I saw a baby bird being born,right i front of my eyes I saw something that looked like a rock become something alive! This little robin has been preparing for this moment it's entire life. This is the hardest thing it has ever done. It has no plan,no idea on what will happen next but it puts in more effort than ever.

So what does that say about us.

about chances and possibility and being brave?

I think about preperation and maybe that's just as important as the end result. That it's this weird mix of being ready and facing the unknown. That tiny robin has no idea what the big wide world will bring and yet this is the big event. After the shell there's no real plan but that does'nt matter.

I want to be that robin because all the preperation in the world only sets us up for a single event after that we'll play it by ear and we'll see the world for the first time. Maybe we'll start defenseless but from that comes a beautiful song.

cheese fest but I'm feeling reflective