Thursday, December 31, 2009

It's the end of a decade. Ten years ago I was six years old. My little sister had been born in march of 99 and other than that memories are few and far between. There had been a big snowstorm that year and for some reason the snowplows had deposited all our streets snow in the little ditch that is between the sidewalk and the road. My father and mother were laughing at the Y2K scares and we went over to a family friends house to celebrate. Now it's a decade later. There has been no snow and because of my excessive procrastination new years eve will be spent watching musicals and doing homework. When I think about how many changes the past year brought I am astounded. Everything from my personal style to basic aspects of my personality have changed. Starting this blog was a big change for me. I think it was at that point that I really attacked my one resolution of 2009: to be more positive. If a person can change so much in one year what is going to happen in a decade? I can't believe that the next time I think about a decade passing that I'll be 26 and that just terrifies me. At this point I am looking for small comforts and I think I am finding some.
1. I am much happier with the person I am now than the person I was at this time last year. For the first time in who knows how long I feel like I am being honest with others and with myself. I don't know if all that is a by product of recovery or just growing up but I like it.
2. Basically I have a year and a half left of high school (No more explanations needed)
3. Despite the excesses of celebrity influence, global warming,2012, the "kill the gays" bill and all the scary things going on the 21st century is a pretty cool place. I'm not saying that it's perfect but slowly we are finding ways to be better activists and better people. The fact is that lets say 50 years ago my thoughts would be considered way less important than they are now + the factors of racism,homophobia and even more sexism were trying to stop people's voices from being heard. Now none of these things are gone but (especially here in Canada) they are a lot better.
So end of an era, end of a decade. What are we going to be remembered as? 9/11,Iraq,Oil,Our lack of action considering Darfur? I hope not. I hope that by the time the history books are talking about the past decade they will say "Well they kind of screwed up a lot but they did some good things too and in 2010 it was all fixed." I know that will probably not be the case but I hope with the waves of change that have slowly started in the first decade of the 21st century will really pick up and do something more. I hope that people can learn to be a little more open minded and learn to love each other in spite of and because of our differences.
I'm kind of sappy and overly gushy today so I'm sorry if this post sucks but I's hope to think that there are a few good lines in here because I want to end 2009 on a good note because in a year of ups and downs both historically and personally what are you going to do on the last day? You can't look back and focus on the bad or the mediocre. You have to find one day where you felt infinite and hope that by this time next year that you can find at least two.

1 comment:

  1. Great post. I've just discovered your blog and I love what you write.. also, I changed a lot in 2009, too. It's like I'm not afraid to show myself anymore, and I'm ok with who I am. Anyway, happy new year!