Monday, June 22, 2009
Today I learned about possibility. Today I learned that it is the most fickle thing in the world and that sometimes when everything is new and possible and there are two months of freedom awaiting you.
Everything can seem a little dark cause one tiny door is slowly closing. But here's the kicker.
that doesn't mean the end of the world.
Do we get to be worried? Sad? Confused? Of course! But the fact is that chances are always going to be out there and maybe I'm being to hard on myself maybe the chance still is there. But it's the eternal fight for optimism that keeps life interesting.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
Broad opening sentence don't you think? But really,today I learned that you never have anybody all figured out. I hate to admit that. Cause to so many people I'm a confidante and I like to think I have everyone figured out. I like to think that bi-weekly therapy visits have basically given me a degree in psychology. But you never figure everything out about everyone. Or anyone for that matter.
Isn't that kind of beautiful?
Cause mystery is beautiful it's exciting and strange and well. I relish it! I love the idea of getting to know someone. Whether that means making a new friend,going on a date,or just have a real talk with your best friend like when you were in grade six and spent hours talking over movies eating jumbo bags of popcorn.
also... MARY POSTED ON MY BLOG. YES THE REST OF CYBERSPACE I DON'T THINK YOU CAN HEAR ME BUT SHE DID.
Countdown till summer starts hopefully it's one of learning (Note to self after Monday start emptying your head of formulas for the days ahead)
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
With exams looming and culminatings on top of us it's easy to think of preperation in the simple reading your notes kind of way. But today I saw a baby bird being born,right i front of my eyes I saw something that looked like a rock become something alive! This little robin has been preparing for this moment it's entire life. This is the hardest thing it has ever done. It has no plan,no idea on what will happen next but it puts in more effort than ever.
So what does that say about us.
about chances and possibility and being brave?
I think about preperation and maybe that's just as important as the end result. That it's this weird mix of being ready and facing the unknown. That tiny robin has no idea what the big wide world will bring and yet this is the big event. After the shell there's no real plan but that does'nt matter.
I want to be that robin because all the preperation in the world only sets us up for a single event after that we'll play it by ear and we'll see the world for the first time. Maybe we'll start defenseless but from that comes a beautiful song.
cheese fest but I'm feeling reflective
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
I realized that NOBODY tells you what to prepare for in terms of growing up. It's enough to give a girl one serious peter pan complex. I am a pop culture junkie at times. I watch TV and movies read copious amounts of of books and honestly I thought that teenagerdom wouldn't throw me
HA! So I write lessons for my sister. Cause I mean by the time things get tough I'll be OLD. You try and tell your parents things are harder now? Well they can't see it cause their youth probably was no bed of roses.
I never want to be the adult who is so caught up in their current life that they forget how crazy their teen years can be.
Not that I'm bitter or angry with my teenage years, the friends I have now are amazing, if life never gets any better than this I am content. But still I'm thrown for a loop. For example; What does a date entail? Do teachers ever tell you the truth? How do you separate something deep from a pile of angst?
I'm trying to figure that out. So every day I will learn or discover something and I will write a lesson for my sister. I'm feeling very Maya Angelou letters to my daughter esque right now. I want to teach all my "sisters" something. I want to teach myself something.